Our kindergartner’s paperwork was late, but the principal of her new school didn’t know that. She only knew that the post office had held their mail during the summer, and that our paperwork was in the pile.
I introduced myself at an end-of-summer picnic. “Oh, Mrs. P.!” she replied, “So sorry that we didn’t send your welcome letter sooner. When I saw your papers in the summer pile I knew that I had to send you something right away.”
And when she emphasized the ‘you’, I knew that I had been pegged. We had toured the school the previous spring, and I had requested a specific classroom for my daughter. I had inquired about class size. I had e-mailed about volunteer opportunities. We turned in our paperwork on time, and even got her physical and dental check-ups. Early.
“If there’s anything you need Mrs. P.” she continued, “you just let me know. We’ll take very good care of your daughter this year.” She looked at me intently as if I wouldn’t believe her, and suddenly I felt embarrassed. Uh oh…
In the world of my kindergartner’s new school, I was a helicopter parent.
whop, whop, whop…
Now get in your car (I assume you don’t actually own a helicopter), and drive five miles east. We have another daughter, a first-grader, who attends a private school. It’s not a fancy or exclusive place–80% of the students are there on scholarship–but it is small, and comfortable for our daughter. Easy. The transition from kindergarten to first grade involved moving across the hallway, and she already knew her teacher, her teacher’s aide, and 16 of her 18 classmates.
(Little sister didn’t make kindergarten cutoff this year, which is why she is attending the large public school of the previous section.)
Her school requires “substantive parental involvement,” and they are not joking. The baseline commitment is 24 hours a year per family, but I suspect that many parents do more. Volunteers produce an elaborate spring musical, serve monthly breakfasts to the teachers, maintain an outdoor classroom, and organize an annual all-school camping trip. On Fridays parent volunteer supervise lunch in every classroom. Before school begins in September we bring our buckets and mops and clean the entire school.
Unfortunately, I know of most of these commitments (other than the bucket and mop) second-hand. We barely made our 24 hours last year.
And just last week a parent, a very-involved-parent, handed me a service opportunities survey. I read down the list of everything I didn’t do last year. Then I turned the paper over, and found another full page. Oops.
And I ask you: How can the helicopter parent of one school be a complete slacker at the other?
I am one of those people who tends to take everything personally. For example, I felt guilty last year when I couldn’t do extra volunteer opportunities at our older daughter’s school. It was hard to look the very-involved-parents in the eye! This year, I find myself holding back at our younger daughter’s school, not wanting to be perceived as too eager. I care about what people think (or what I think they think), and so I try to manage my reputation, carefully striving to find the balance between over and under-involved, and trying to appear neither lazy or over-zealous.
It’s all a bunch of foolishness.
I’ve decided that this year I don’t have time for self-scrutiny. My two girls are at two schools, and they both need “substantive parental involvement.” So within the time constraints of reality, I will try to be involved in both places. This probably means that I will appear both lazy and over-zealous, depending on the location, but so be it.
Because in the end, it’s not really about me anyway.